I WILL PRAISE YOU IN THE STORM

ABSENT FROM THE BODY....PRESENT WITH THE LORD... "I was sure by now that You would have reached down and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day. But once again, I say, Amen and it's still raining As the thunder rolls I barely hear Your whisper through the rain, "I'm with you". And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away. And I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands. For You are who You are no matter where I am. And every tear I've cried You hold in Your hand, You never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm."

"Love Is Patient and Kind..."1 Corinthians 13:

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments, but great moments often catch us unaware, beautifully wrapped in what others may consider insignificant. PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID, BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL!

"To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; 

our human loneliness is cause enough.

 But it is a hard quest worth making 

to find a comrade through whose steady presence

 one becomes steadily the person one desires to be."

Anna Louise Strong 

Sometimes I feel as though I've lost myself....

The Triumph of Irrationality

To think that the affairs of this life always remain in the same state is a vain presumption; indeed they all seem to be perpetually changing and moving in a circular course. Spring is followed by summer, summer by autumn, and autumn by winter, which is again followed by spring, and so time continues its everlasting round. But the life of man is ever racing to its end, swifter than time itself, without hope of renewal, unless in the next life that is limitless and infinite.”
― Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra, Don Quixote

Interesting dialogue from the movie "The Next Three Days
John Brennan: So, "The Life and Times of Don Quixote," what is it about?
Julie: That someone's belief in virtue is more important than virtue itself.
John Brennan: Yeah, that's in there. What else is it about? ...Could it be about how rational thought destroys the soul? The triumph of irrationality, and the power that is in it...Now we spend a lot of time trying to organize the world. We build clocks and calendars and we try to predict the weather, but what part of our life is truly under our control? What if we choose to exist in a reality of our own making, does that render us insane; and if so - isn't that better than a life of despair?

Life After Delivery

In a mother's womb were two babies. One asked the other: "Do you 

believe in life after delivery?" The other replies, "why, of course. There 

has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare

ourselves for what we will be later.

 "Nonsense," says the other. "There is no life after delivery. What would that life be?"

 "I don't know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths."

 The other says "This is absurd! Walking is impossible.

And eat with our mouths? Ridiculous. The umbilical cord supplies

nutrition. Life after delivery is to be excluded. The umbilical cord is too

short." 

"I think there is something and maybe it's different than it is

here." the other replies,

 "No one has ever come back from there. Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery it is nothing but darkness and anxiety and it takes us nowhere."

 "Well, I don't know,"says the other, "but certainly we will see mother and she will take care of us."

 "Mother??" You believe in mother? Where is she now? 

"She is all around us. It is in her that we live. Without her there would not be this world."

 "I don't see her, so it's only logical that she doesn't exist." 

To which the other replied, "sometimes when you're in silence you can hear her, you can perceive her." I believe there is a reality after delivery and we are here to prepare ourselves for that reality....

Psalm 46:10  “Be still and know that I am God.... 
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”

Answer - Sarah McLachian

I will be the answer  -    at the end of the line
I will be there for you -    while you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty -    I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance - if you can't look down

If it takes my whole life -   I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it  -   worth it in the end.
Cause I can only tell you what I know -  that I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out -   you'll still be burning so bright.

Cast me gently into morning -  for the night has been unkind.

3 years

"from the moment I saw you, I wanted to meet you. 

from the moment I met you, I wanted to know you. 

from the moment I knew you, I loved you. 

from the moment I loved you, I wanted to share my life with you.... 

And from that moment to this moment, and for all the moments to come, I will 

love you with all my heart."

...if that sounds like a Hallmark card that's 'cause it is....
the last birthday card that I ever gave him 10-5-2008. He had one more birthday...10-5-2009...celebrated one day after a one month stay in a Dallas rehab hospital...
Gone from us 3 years now...Does it get any "easier"?..it does not.
Rest in peace, my beloved.

A Grief Observed

“God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He
 knew it already. It was I who didn't. In this trial He makes us occupy the dock,the witness box

 and the bench all at once. He always knew that ”my temple was a house of cards. His only way of 
making me realize the fact was to knock it down.

― C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed

Memories

“There are moments when I wish I could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but I have the feeling that if I did, the joy would be gone as well.”
― Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember