Don't Wanta Get Over You

Old memories have the damndest way of showing up at the most unusual time. They can walk right through the darkest part of your mind and turn on every light- Or take a perfect crystal day and turn it into a misty shade of blue... I still see your dark eyes almost everywhere I turn, I keep standing on the bridges I thought that I had burned, I can still feel you near me in everything I try to do - And the only thing that I can say that makes me act and feel this way is I never, no I never got over you

Love Story

From the moment I saw you I wanted to meet you. From the moment I met you I wanted to know you. From the moment I knew you I was in love with you. From the moment I loved you I wanted to spend my life with you. And from that moment to this moment and all the moments to come I will love you with all my heart.

Sound like a Hallmark card? That's cause it is! The last birthday card I ever gave him.

"Love Is Patient and Kind..."1 Corinthians 13:

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments, but great moments often catch us unaware, beautifully wrapped in what others may consider insignificant. PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID, BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL!

Answer - Sarah McLachian

I will be the answer  -    at the end of the line
I will be there for you -    while you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty -    I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance - if you can't look down

If it takes my whole life -   I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it  -   worth it in the end.
Cause I can only tell you what I know -  that I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out -   you'll still be burning so bright.

Cast me gently into morning -  for the night has been unkind.

3 years

"from the moment I saw you, I wanted to meet you. 

from the moment I met you, I wanted to know you. 

from the moment I knew you, I loved you. 

from the moment I loved you, I wanted to share my life with you.... 

And from that moment to this moment, and for all the moments to come, I will 

love you with all my heart."

...if that sounds like a Hallmark card that's 'cause it is....
the last birthday card that I ever gave him 10-5-2008. He had one more birthday...10-5-2009...celebrated one day after a one month stay in a Dallas rehab hospital...
Gone from us 3 years now...Does it get any "easier"?..it does not.
Rest in peace, my beloved.

Memories

“There are moments when I wish I could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but I have the feeling that if I did, the joy would be gone as well.”
― Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember

 

first love - last love

Anna and Jeremy

On March 24 of this year Anna, the daughter of Sherry Harding Veal (a long-time friend of Barb's) married her beloved, Jeremy.. A few short weeks later Jeremy took a new job and went to Memphis for training as a Sub-Contractor for CVRS Telecommunications, installing cable TV, Internet, and phone lines for Mediacom in Northern Alabama. During a training exercise he fell and sustained serious head injuries... This video is for them


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMG6f6H3-u0&feature=g-upl

I Will Wait For You

It was so easy for me to fall in love with you. You were what I had been waiting and longing for. I am 77 years old and I've loved your since I was 16... The hardest most painful thing I've ever experienced is being away from you... I miss holding your hand, sitting side by side in church or in the theater... shoulders touching...I miss having you in bed beside me, hearing you snore..I miss looking across the room and seeing you there, even thou we could go for hours without talking we were together...we were there with each other...I miss your encouragement...I miss hearing your voice... When evening comes and I'm so alone, I close my eyes and I can feel your strong arms wrap around me, your sweet kisses and whispers of "I love you". My heart breaks from loneliness. My soul prays that we will be together again. I'm longing for that moment. God knows how much I miss you. We may be apart, but my love for you is even stronger. My Love, all I want is to share each moment with you... for now I will wait for that moment.

In the Arms of an angel

In the arms of an Angel, far away from here

From this dark, lonely room, and the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie

In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

2006

A Message To My Children

a message for my children on this mothers-day eve:

I'm getting older...thank you for having patience with me as I age...

When I repeat myself...thank you for listening anyway..when you were young and wanted something you would sometimes ask over and over
I remember and treasure those memories.

As my body weakens...thank you for not minding that I walk slow,lag behind and slow down your progress... sometimes needing  help from my wheelchair or cane... I remember and treasure the memories of when each of you earned to walk!

Thank you for your assistance in doing all the  "routine" things that I find hard to do for myself..
I can smile as I remember helping you open a bottle or tie your shoes..

I realize that you  understand  I'm alone and lonely most of the time and I'm grateful for how much of your precious-little spare time that you give to me.
For those four of you who live far away...thank you for using your time and resources to see me..it's a long way from Hazel Green, Al. to Dallas and Chicago..

Thank you for my precious grand-and great-grand children..they bring me joy..

As I continually grieve over the loss of your father...thank you for understanding ...each of you suffer the loss of him also.

and when the time comes for me to leave you please don't be too sad...I will be reuniting with the love of my life and I will be with our creator..and I will ask Him to watch over and bless each of you..

because I love you very much.
 



Two Years Ago tomorrow

Please don't ask me if I'm over it yet...I'll never be over it...bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.

In The Arms of the Angel...

feeling the lose of him so acutely this month...


http://youtu.be/jVbkz_3lO3c

A Fresh Endeavour

So now I've taken leave of life,
I thought you'd like to know, I still
Possess a mind in love, oh wife;
A soulful eye to catch a show of
Silent beauty – ever yours;

An ear to pick the metaphors
Of tonal dance in words you say,
Grasp a thought in verse you pray
Inside your head, bemused of mind,
Softly mournful, intertwined with
Understanding tears.

I'll drift a whisper o'er to you
To tell that I am quietly calm;
Keeping time till your adieu
To flesh, upon the carol of a
Psalm of consummation.
 Now!
A fresh endeavour – we're forever
One together, resting yonder,
Cross our open plane of blue.

 Mark R Slaughter 2009

I Just Can't Decide...

WHO'S THE CUTTEST ???

MISS MOLLY

OR  CARA ?

 

A Family Thing

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He was....

true..to himself and to me...

...he was proud of his children and what he had made of his life...

...he was thankful...

...he was  not "career driven" but worked hard to provide for his family...
...he was a good friend...

...though strong and determined he was tender hearted...

...he was giving of himself...

...he was pretty much "set in his ways"...

...he was, not often but sometimes, unyielding...

...he was too conservative...
...he watched too much Fox Cable News..
...he put me first...
...he was forgiving...
...I'm everything I am because he loved me...
 ...he exhibited grace under pressure...
...even through suffering and death...
..he was more than I can put into words...


...he is gone and my sorrow is unending...

To Where You Are

To Where You Are

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate,)
i want no world (for  you are my world,)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you .

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Edward Estlin Cummings

Because you loved us